CHAPTER12

block him.

yes I've decided to block bader, it will be really hard but its better! i have to forget him i had to..and since we are going to be family and see each other more i cant keep it awkward i have to act normal ..ugh how hard it could be?!

we ate and we finished and headed to the movie,,i didn't really watched it! i kept thinking about bader..would he notice?i don't think so! he must be a player like abulla called him and he must forgotten me!

the movie finished and i didn't even noticed!dalia nudged me..

dalia: jawoo shfech;/
jawa: ha?shfene? mafeni shay!
dalia: g9ay 3laich eb baaitch ntfham , kaife qrrt i will sleep over
jawa: tbene ayy(:? walla tben takhthen ra7tch(: khu elbait baitch y3ne:)
dalia:huh adre yala goumay
jawa: zain zain abi starbuck!
dalia; a9lan aked brou7 w entay 3azmtni
jawa:ok la tbchen (:

we went to starbucks ordered for take out and went home..

dalia tmout 3alla my round wooden chair so ra7at w g3dt dakhla w galtle shfech?

jawa: dalia its so hard i cant do it but i want to! god why did i habe to love him? its like canser(: only canser can be cured.
dalia:ok but its the right thing! you are strong enough
jawa: ok can you do it for me?
dalia: 36ene telfonch!
jawa: waitt..

i searched his name in twitter ,, i took last glances of his account.. even though i know that i will check his account every second!

i throw the phone at dalia and went to the bathroom,,i couldn't even cry! i felt numb!i didn't believe it!i didn't think that it would be that hard ,he was my first love and i hope last! its really painful! why ?why me? what did i do wrong?why did Cupid had to shoot me with his stupid love arrows?
he HYPNOTISED ME , i remembered everything about him! if i could go back in time! i wouldn't press that follow button!


we spent the rest of the night playing fifa , i lost the game and i usually don't.. dalia noticed and she was worried..she kept quiet for a moment then told me something,although it made my tears fall but it gave me hope made me feel better! she told me....

                                             if you truly loved something..leave it

                                                it will go far away from you but...

                    if its worth it , if it was really meant to be urs forever and ever..

                                                       if it loved you honestly..

 

                                               it will comeback to you....when?

 

                                                 exactly in the right time so..

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                                                         wait and see if he...

 

                                                           worth it or not...

her words bring to the life back to me! i hope bader comes back in time! when i can be his..forever!

jawa: a7bch! tfheemeeeeen!=)) anyway khnswe shay mynoun!
dalia: qa9ban 3laich! , nag9a ynun?
jawa: 3ndiiiiii fkraaa! dalia  please:(:::
dalia: asma3?
jawa; shraych nrou7 eljam3ya w nbls mask malut scream w che w nkhr3 elnass w nshtre chna mako shay w n6la3!
dalia: ynety?LA.
jawa: wala b9er wanasaa 3afya ;c
dalia: zain yalla!
jawa:7baaiiiitchhh! yala t7mst yala!

we went w khr3na elnass w wa7da 6ag rasha mn elkhr3a =)) w shtraaina chna mako shy:: we went out laghing rdaina elbait myten the7ek w b3den we slep!