CHAPTER11

those questions kept revolving until i slept..

so i have a second cousin i haven't mentioned yet , her name is dalia and shes 2 years older than me but she understands me and a day cant pass by without talking to her..

so i woke up in the morning and i felt like telling dalia the "hall thing" i was shy and it took millions of years 3shan tfham(:! we kept talking and talking and we decided to go out today to talk about this..first i refused because "ast7ii:'(::" bas dalia lma t7anchh w magdar ardhaa;'(:: anyway i hung the phone , i forcefully got out of my seducing bed and went to to the bathroom and filled the tub with extremely cold water played my music and plunged in..it was really refreshing, freezing bath tubs make me think and relax my mind!

after 1 hour and 50 minutes passing i got out did my business and went down stairs i saw khaled and my dad sitting , slmt 3laihm w r7t elm6bakh adwr shay ynwkl..wella a7d gam y6g eljaras,,6let mn eldreshha i saw a man figure holding a bag , ana nathare mn b3ed mu zain y3ne elahya2 ely b3eda i see it blurry.. i thought ena sayg y3ne mnu byeb chees eb hal thahare! so i went to the door 3shan ab6laaa..

dad: ha mnu yay hal 7aza
jawa:sayg yayb chees tlga rabe3 omi wala shay *screaming while opening the door*

i opened the door and i wish i didn't..it was BADER.

i was more than embarrassed ,  shocked (ya arth ebla3e ma 3layke)

bader:halla ekhty ana okhou abdulla w ehwa yayblkum 7elw
jawa:ahh eehh ahh shkran

mad eeda y36ene elchees w ana mu mstw3ba..

bader: jaw..ekhty tfthlay elchees
jawa:ah shukran

khthet elchees w ana arjf w dshett w knt twne mtsb7a w bdla so shkle kan not bad.

i went inside w glthum ena abdulla yayben 7elw w chee

dad:ahh khush nas mbyn elsana3 3laihum mayg9roun
khaled:36ene bthougg
jawa:yal b6ainee=))
dad:enty matkhlen a7ad eb 7ala ?36e ythug:::
jawa:enshala enshala::

i gave them the bag and i was heading to my room but i remember that i have to ask my father ena ba6la3 wyaa dalia w adre mara7 ygoul shay ,, ahle y7bun dalia wwaayd::

jawa: yubba nsait agoulk shkthr a7bkkkkk
khaled: ybba tra gam tm9l7
dad;adre fehaaa =))
jawa:khaled chub! yubaa dalia tslm 3laik w tgouulkkk ehya wlhana 3lay w tbene a6la3 wyaha
dad: wyaa dalia? 3yal okk w slmay 3laiha goulelha khatzorna mzman 3anha !

6ab3an bas sm3t ok shf6tt w masm3t bajji el7ache=))

i texted dalia ina okay enty mrene elsa3a 6:30 w goulele gblha wain brou7..

i laid on my round mahogany wooden chair that looks like this:

i put my my headphones and played paradise -cold play,, it is really not my type of songs but this song? make me feel like i was laying on the sand in front of beautiful tropical island beach..i took my sketch book and a pencil and i kept sketching and i didnt recognise what was i drawing until i was done! i draw this..

i guess i was just following my heart...i added a small B letter inside the heart and i looked at it with a smile! it was simple but it expressed much!

dalia called my and told me to get ready and we where going to avenues and she will throw egg at my window "etha l63t'ha bara" =)) so i wore this:

i let my naturally wavy hair down put some lipstick ans mascara and i was ready to go!

mratne dalia w galtle enha 7zjt film w ena khnrou7 nakel eb shake shak l2nha mshtheta

we went there and headed to shakeshak , g3dna w we talked i told her what did i felt i told her that..

i love him but i would be upset if loved me back and i would be too if he didn't and i would be upset if he did talked to me and i also would if he didn't! its complicated and it was exactly what did i felt!

so she suggested something.. it was hard sooo hard! but i have no other choice ! so i decided to.....