CHAPTER20

bader: alsaalaam 3laikuumm

I was more than shocked, a7s ybyn mn my top ena glbi gam y6g 7aill!!9ar fene yaann hatha? Chan astw3b ena ehwa tqreban y9erle.
3shan che ya salam!!, well I know eena 3shan ychouf mnu elyy ana wagfa wyaaa! Walla mn his shity stared ay care ay ba6ekh,


w I will not explain elii 9ar blhospital ohwa ma sma3.. its his problem, his not my brother after all:) w guess what? Etha mara thanya ya saalam ra7 agoul 7g 3abdulla l2na klsh mala da3e. Okay gam abalgh bas ena I don't have anything to do with him!! Ghairr ena his the brother of my sister husband!


Jawa: 3laikum salam!, hamad hatha okhoo zouj ghezlaan! Bader.

Bader: haaala okhouy, tshrfna!

Hamad: eb m3rftk, kaif el7al?

Bader: mashe walla, yala ana ast'2then bas 7bait aslm!

Hamad: matg9er, ma3a salama!

And he left.. Wait! I think my heart left with him! Acting like I hardly know him, while the minute can't pass by without thinking of him? Is really hard!


Hamad: shakla khush wa7d, bas shako eyy yslm:::

Jawa: hehe eee walla shako::

Awrad yat w g3dna nt7rsh feha, len mayaww mesharri w fara7!b-f called us w r7na eltable.

6lbna soulfnaa tha7kna, 9wrna akeed::::! Lain mayaat the cake! mfaj2en fara7. Kamalat 22, 6ab3an e7na khefat eldam thab7tnaa katben happy 30's birthday =))...

Fara7: abaayy ma9aadg 7adkum ekyoutt :'(! A7bkuumm jaadd, waaitt shnu hathaaaa!!!
Shnu 30 heeywwww

Meshari: shtben ba3ad 9ghrnach=))

Fara7: meshari chubbb:)

Hamad: 7elwa mnk meshari=))

Awrad: kaaaaaak:::

Jawa: ma3laichh shaklch a9ghar, shaklch 26=))

Fara7: gam tbchune?:')!

And the teasing continues...we gave her the gifts! We paid b3den r7na elfilm!

6ab3an ana w awrad hdaaina elfilm g3dnaa w n7thf popcorn 3ala elnass!

#ebdaaa3.

6b3an 6l3t lq6a tkhrr333333, 9rkhna 9arkha ely 7saina khla9 game over ka yayelnaa eb y6rduna=)), bas ma7d 36ana wayh:::

Khala9 elfilm w 6l3na w mshaina le elsyaaraa w gam y36una m7athra ena shhal 9rakh w fe a7d y7thf popcorn::::


THE BEST PART COME bl6al3a:::


9ar 3ndna tradition n76 harlem shake w e7na radenn w n9rkh wallaa a7s elsyara trg9 mn baaraa::::, w9lunee elbait! I thanked them waydd, w dshait elbaait! Slmt 3allaa omi w obouy. Soulftt gtlhum shswainaa, gtlhum bader ya salam,

Dad: ay bader?

Jawa: okhooo 3abdulla

Mom&dad: ahh ya 7laila walla


I always tell my parent every detail, mu 3an shay bas a7b ena lma ykounon proud of me! Ykunun y3rfun klshay!mu y3rfun swalfe w ashya2 3ane ashya2!

w r7t darii I laid on my bed w sh7nt telfone, as always kla 6affe!

I took a long freezing shower and I went to bed! I picked my phone and unlocked it!

I checked dm mn barra! Mn el notification y3ne ma dshait accountii...

I read the name and froze!

THE_BADER_: ....

But how? My heart kept banginggg like crazy! My hands kept shaking!!

Ohh ok stw3bt, so its not for me, its for my bestfriend... , you didn't get it right? Well you see...


I have a great bestfriend, her name is sara,
I know her since grade4! I love her wayd, w ma tklmt 3andy previously blstory because blvocation we don't hang out that much! She have second cousins she spend most of her time with them just like me:p, bas wayd nsoulf whatsaap w I call her w she know everything about me and understand me as well..



So ana dasha account'ha w ehya dasha accounty:p.. So lma you9al elshay w ashoufa mn barra bas ybyn elmessege maybyn 7g which account.

My heart beats went back normal again, I let out a sigh of relief! Jad t9rg3t! Khft mswya follow blghaala6 aw shay!, I played my music and I locked my phone not bothering to read the messege, it was about some question in ask etc... Something not really important..

I slept with the headphones still sceaming into my ears...


I woke up and its time for the stupid school!
It was 7:25 and I still didn't feel like waking up! Suddenly! An idea popped in my mind!

Ngzt mn elfrash w r7t 9oub eldresha, since ena dreshte eb wajhat elbait so elshams tkun qawya 3ala my window! L9gt wayhe 3alaa eldreshha 3shan a9er 7arra:'(, y3ne maretha w 7rakat che:: fhmtaw?::

Shakle kan yth7k shloun la9ga khdude:'( faj2a omi tdsh....

Mom: jawa yala gom......haw shgam tswen?0.0

Jawa: gam aswe nafse maretha:'(

Mom: goumay goumay bdlay wayd t2khrty::
3laich 7rkat :::

Jawa: WAAY if ok:(!

I went to the bathroom, did my business w I changed! Since ena tsb7t ams so sha3re 9ayr curly yshwg, so mala da3e aswe fe shay bas 3adltaa shwy!

I went down staires while wondering wain 7a6a jaan6te elmadrssa...

I kissed my mom forhead w 36tne floss.

Jawa: yumma bmr mac bs3ra walla

Mom: jawa chayfa elsa3a cham?

Jawah: yuma already t2khrt w bkhlune bl6abur 3al aqal akel w ana wagfa:')::

Mom: way way ok, jan6tch elmadrsa ya 7the blsyara mn elkhmess

Jawa: ee mako wajbat!

Mom: rou7ay rou7ay la t2khren zyada!

Jawa: byeeee

Mom: bye alah y7fthch


I went to mac, 6lbt w r7t elmadrsa! Bas w9lt walla estqbal malaki 3nd elbab:)...

Elnathra: JAWA rb6aaayyy sha3rrch wain yaya 7afla?

Bslmah khal adsh bab elmdrsa(:!!

Jawa: shab9te eng63t blsyara

Elnathra: rou7ay ekhthay mn mnak yala jdamy!

Jawa: kaa lgait lgait 3nde!

Elnathra: 3adlay 7rkatch jawa!

Mshait w 7rgt'ha.. Shgoulha ba3ad? Sjlt esmee 3nd elmt2khrat w klait while walking to the class!


Mrait yam 9aff sara w swait 7rkat 3abe6a:'(, walla astw3b ena 3ndhum mwajeh 7ather el7e99a...


Dshait el9aff wallaa...

Elbanat y9arkhun ena n9hum yth7kun w na9hum madre shsalfa shfehm hathel:/!!

Muthawwee: jaawaaa yaatt yala 36ouna kl el7alaw

Jawa: shsalfa?::

Maryam: haala bl7uubbb!, knaa mtrahnen 3ala 7alaw ena etha btgheben wala tyenn. W fzna:::

Jawa: ahaa:::


G3dna n9arkh w nghnee len yat abltnaa w el7e99a couldn't pass by any slower:) y3ne math akeed

The bell rang......

CHAPTER19

BADER.

bsrr3a wkhrt 3youni w lfait 3ala awrad, as if i don't care bas kant wayhe em39b 3ala awrad, i think he expected to see me! sm3taw shloun 7athrt'ha awrad  kant t9arkh w ehya tklmne?(:


aha(: so 3shan che awrad kant m3tfsa w twtrt! kant tbena nchouf ba3ath:) she's acting miss cupid:) matdre elii 9ar w asasn ma7b che! it feel cheap,,its not me!don't ask shnu elyy mu ana bas i mabe ashoufa khala9. 36ait awrad nathra ely awrech blbait khthait 5 kd from my bag w 76ait'ha 3alla elbooth table without looking at him, w mshait w ana shwy w athba7 awrad.




jad why? why all that happened to me? i was happy, simple! what is wrong living this way! why i couldn't continue leaving like this? ugh ugh.

tlaiit awrad & i started walking fast! i didn't know where to go, i was just walking w awrad kant sakta l2ni tadre law t7chat chan thb7t'haa. anyway...

already 9art 10! she called her driver, w rdaina elbait  the hall way i was quiet! w9lna baithum slmt 3alla omha w 93dna foug! ra7t el7mam b3dha radat with a smile

jawa; shfech *still m39ba, mu mn awrad bas ena bas m39ba*

awrad; twa klmt omch w 7nait 3shan tkhlech tnamen w rthat! adre anch m93ba w malch khlg trden elbait so glt tg3den mne!

i grinned the biggest grin ever! walla jad she made my day

jawa: abaayy a7bch!!

awrad: ugh adre

jawa: ham mu kaffoo=))

\we spent the night talking, but we didn't bring BADER'S name! i'm not nitm to talk about him!

we woke up, i was hungry i suggested ena nrou77 the breakfast club

khthait legging mn awrad w loose white top and a black scarf that got flowers and skulls, i tied my hair in a ponytail, awrad wore a sundress and let her hair down! we are ready to go!


r7na mnak! kan shwy z7ma! g3dna w soulfna w klaina, actually i had fun! tmshaina w b3den rj3na elbait. om w obou awrad safraw el9ub7 ra7w dubai for 2 days! kan elbait fathee! faj2a gmna n6al3 ba3ath w nth7ak ena 3rfna shnu n7b nswe lma nkun brou7na!! r7t dar okhouha ayeeb khuthat saikal w ra7at darha tshghel elstereo, lbsna ashya2 tth7k ena khljnaa!, w 76aainaaaa...

                   THE HARLEM SHAKE!!!

3laina el9out 7da w swena video record w 76aina elights ely tshb w t6fee w g3dna narg9 w ngaz w nynnnn walla jad kla nswe che lma nkun brou7na!!w n9arkh w nrg9 w n6g rasna bl6oufaa *l7d ys2all*::: faj2a tb6l elbab it was...



'
BADER.

la atghshmar atghshmar=)), ath7ak ma3akum:: anyway it was awrad's brother 7amad!

hamad: jawa shfech 3ala khuth'te kel mayetyy ktheteha::

jawa: el7mdlah zain ent shlounk

hamad:chub chub=)), awrad w jawa tra elyoum ana w fara7 w mshari *ekhtha w ekhouha* eb n6la3 so zhbaw che 3alla el9, 7zjna film ykhr3.

w 6l3 7ta gbl la ysma3 shnu engoul:):::, ee w did i mention ena awrad t9erle so 3shan che ana kla eb baithum w m6y7a wyaa ahlhaa.


6b3an ba3adha tsd7naaa mn elta3ab w g3dna nl3ab fifa eb playstation malt okhouha!


l3bnaa w stansna it was 7:30! qrrna njhzz! i called my mother w gtlhaa w galt ena bdam wya ekhwanha w kht'ha ngdar nt2khar! i wore this:

 

 

 

and awrad wore this:

 

 

i waved my hair and she tied it up into slicked ponytail. and we was ready to go!


farah dar3maat...

farah: yalaaa na6renkum blsyaaraaa, laish che mhlgeen? *while laughing*

awrad: fara7 9arlna snaa nbdl akher shay halagaa??athb7ch???

farah: atghshmar shklch ekyout jawa=))

jawa:kaaakkk kafch!=))

9krna ellights w gflna bab elbait l2na mako a7d!, rkbna meshari's smoke silver G- CLASS!
shghlna fm w g3dna nghne w nsthbl w 7amad shwy mnshol shwy, kl maybe y36ss ylff 3laainnaa w y36s 3laina:"(, lawaa3 chabddnaaa! enfjrt elsyara mn el9rakh!


w9lna 360!

mesharii: hamad awrad jawa, rou7aw 7jzaw 6awla eb b+f ana w fara7 n6l3 tthaker elcinema w nyelkum!...

we parted away!

awrad: brou7 7mam, jawa tyen wyay?

jawa: la mabe! khl9ay ebsr3a w t33aly!

awrad: okay!

....


gam nmshe ana w 7amad w gam at76lm 3laih ehwa s3abeelaaa elly bsyarra:::!


w9lna b+f! w 7jzna w 36enahm raqam farah 3shan ydgun 3laina etha ya dorna! awal ma 6l3naa chan achouf....





BADER.




and this time? mn 9jii! w 7de m6nshtaa khywlee! 9j i love him wayd bas khaywle!,, he was shooting the dirtiest look ever! wait wait? laykun faham ghalaa6! its look like !!

wgfna ana w 7amad nafrenhum eyoun!,, when suddenly i heard a familiar voice behind me, it was.......

CHAPTER18

BADER:SHFEKK T9ARKHHH CHE?

ABDULLA: LA TST3B6 3LAY , CHFT WAYH JAWWA?MN BA3AD MA L7GT'HA BARA ELGHRFA WAYHA M3TFSS SHMSWEE SHGAAYLLL?? MATB6L 7RAKAATTKKK?

*NO SIGN FOR BADER'S VOICE*

ABDULLA: TRAA BT'THY3NEE ENT! HATHELA BANAT 3AWAYEL MMA3NNDHUM KHRABE6KK BAS KHALA999 YAKHE E7TRM NAFSK!!

BADER: BAS ANA *ABDULLA INTERRUPT*

ABDULLA: MABE ASMA33 SHTGOUL ELMUHM WAKHER 3ANHA!

I heard bader's footsteps sound fade away..that was a shock?  how did  abdulla notice? he is a very caring person , alah yhanne ghezlan feh!

i wanted to hear what bader wanted to say... what he might say? mala shghel fene? gam yl3ab 3alay w yswe nafsa y7bne? y7bne? I wish:( but i don't think so...i think he is player,,, yesyes!

but he is caring.... whatever! even if he does love me i can't do nothing about it ,but i know he doesn't!


sloom's voice interrupted my thoughts...


sloom: jawa shfech ga3da 3nd elbab?

jawa: haa?la bas gam a9kra w agfla bas mayngfl hehehe

sloom; jawwwa t3aly shwy abe aklmch

*my beats accelerated 7AIIILLLLL*
\
jawa: halla?

sloom: jawa shfech ma7sch 3alla ba3thch?

jawa: hmm la shako bas enaa wayd a7atek w chee

sloom: akeed? kane jdamch mafene shay!

jawa:eeh 7mdlah ,adre bas ham akhaff y3ne jad ely 9ar mu shwyaa

*i hate lying i hate it i hate it, i really was also worrying about sloom and he is all better! but the main control on my mind is bader issues!..*

sloom: el7mdlaah,,yala thlfay elbait bnam anaa=))

jawa: ok 7yak maswait shay bas ga3da 3ndk youm kamel bye:)!

sloom: byee bsboosaaa

jawa:bye:::


i left his room and walked through the empty hallways ,thinking of bader! 6la3t walla ma lgait elsayg! dgait 3laih

jawa: shibo waink?

shibo: mama ana chouf enti ana al7ien yje khal mukn mal entaa*


i entered the car and went home! all the way, i was thinking but i wasn't in reality i was day dreaming...i made sensories in my mind i felt pathetic,, i snapped out of it when i reached home!

slmt 3alla omi w obouy s2lune shloun okhouy soulft shwy w 93dt anam,, i was exhusted, but only if i could sleep! and i knew that i couldn't

i kept thinking...today was really painfull! i thought seeing bader would bring happy butterflies but i was sooooo wrong! what was bader going to say? i slept with my thoughts filling the room, i am tired of sleeping after tears i miss my big smile and long real laughs i really want them back!!

 

"CON LOS TERRORISTAS"

 

my phone started ringing, waking me up! it must be awrad(: m7d yg3dne mn elnoum ghairhaaa! and i was right


jawa: laish ma7ad yg3dne mn elnoum ghairch, ay a7ad yg3dne law kfc ana rathya bas LAAISH ENTYY

awrad: 7a9lch 3add, 9outch narrr!=)) enzain sm3ay! elyoum akoo expo eb arth elm3arth! ismaa kootna expo. ygoulon 7elw w ymd7unna khanrou7?

jawa: ee mzman mu ray7a expo w wayd rfejaty nazlen, khal nt6mash!

awrad: klmay omch w rday 3alay wassap

jawa: ok bye!


i felt energy roaming inside me! i went the bathroom , did my business and filled my tub with cold water! i prayed 3alla mayntrss!

i plunged in the cold water playing my favourite album NOTHING NUT THE BEAT -DAVID GUETTA  and put my red beats!

i seriously was thinking of nothing except david guetta blasting songs in my ears! i love thaaattt feeling<3!

anyway khl9t my bath. w nzlt t7t slmt 3alaa omi w obouy!!


jawa: halla bliiee t7baaa kl asbaaabiii:'(:::

dad: jawwa 7ta khdamt jerannaa 3rft anch gam tm9l7inn alah yhadaachh

mom: *laughing* 9a7 elnoum!

jawa: afaaaaaa2222=)), 9a7 eb dench maami:$

mom: mami? walla anch m9l7aa:::

jawa: khala9 zain m9l7a sm3aw, 3ade ana w awrad nrou7 ma3rath arth elm3arth! nt6amash ham wayd rfejaty nazlen boothat PLEASE:(

mom: w okhouch? thdena w trou7in m3rath? may9er jawa

dad: la maykhalef khleha, ams 6oul elyoum kant 3ndahh youm magdrna nrou7!

mom:zain khala9!

jawa:AA7BKUUMMM *while running up the stairs to tell awrad and get ready*

i waved my hair and wore this:

i called our driver 3shan yg6ne 3nd awrad, nzlt t7t 7g omi w obouy 3shan akhth fluss

jawa: shukraaaan byeee
dad&mom: ma3asalama alah y7afthch

rkbt elsyaraaa..

jawa: shibo 99.7
shibo: ok mama


i arrived at awrad's, 6l3tle w we hit the road to the expo!

w9lnaa 6;30 makan wayd z7ma tmshena slmt 3ala rfejaty sa3dnahumm w b3na wyahum! ga3dna nmtshaa ana w awrad w 9ar shwy az7amm!

awrad faj2a wayha gam yglb alwann, rtkbtt madre shfeha! t6al3ne w tth7ak madre shalftha

awrad: jawa abii redbull khanrou7 hal booth

jawa: okay, enty rou7ay brou7 7mamm

awrad: LAA, wyaa ba3ath!

jawa: haw shfech twch ray7a, ana shwy w yaytlch!

awrad: uhh okay

i went to the bathroom w gam afker ena haw shfeha awradd!!

i went to the bathroom w knt twne b6la3 chan tdg awrad

awrad: JAAWWAA TBEENN SHAAYY TSHRBEENA *9outha shwy 3alee*

jawa: shfech t9arkhen ynety?

awrad:masamaa333 okayy ra7 a6lblchh rebull mthlee , byyeee jaaaaawaaa

(:?::?:?:?:?) wayhe kan che blthaaab666!!!

r7t lha elbooth i felt a7d gam ykhz mn elbooth, 7grt ma lfait y3ne aked 9bay mala da3e alf!

swaw eldrink w khl9aw abe akhth eldrinkk wallaa the seller y6la3....

CHAPTER17

ABDULLA.

i quickly stand up and tried to shake sloom's bed to wake him up while gesturing abdullaa. (zouj ekhty)

abdulla; alsaalam 3laikum
jawa: 3laikm elsalam hala abdulla shlounk, asfa 7sballe elakl klyoum eyoun 3ala hal 7aza;p
abdulla: LOL shd3wa t2sfen a9lan th7kt;p
jawa: hehe, 7yak estreee7
abdulla: la fashla ma nbe n2the slaiman bas yayen nt7md lah blsalama

wayhe 9ar *N2the*? ena ehwa w mnu? because he was alone , its look like fhm qa9de...

abdulla: ana w bader okhouy ;p

*bader came in holding a key and beautiful flowers*

bader: alsalam 3laikum
jawa: 3laikum elsalam
bader: abdulla hatha elward
abdulla:yalla jawa , el7mdlah 3alla salamta w hatha elward bmuunasbt salmta
jawa: mashkur matg9er

sloom ft7 3younna w stw3b:)::

slaiman: ohh hala blnseeb , 7yaak eg3ad eg3ad
abdulla: la walla ma nbe nthaygkk
slaiman: agoulk streee7:::


g3daw in a side of the bed and I'm in the other side w gamw ysoulfon 3an elmubarat w ashya2 w che w bader still mnfs(:! , faj3a telfone rann:) w 6ab3an telefone kan bl6awla ely bain bader w abdulla w elranna klsh ma tsa3d "harlem shake" gmt bsrr3a...

abdulla: bader 3a6 jawa telfonha
bader handed me the phone and accidentally he took a glance at the ID caller w chna mu 3ajba , law ma7ba chan dst eb ba6na. anyway i took the phone and went outside to answer the caller that i didn't check who it was...

jawa:aloo
fahad: halla jawjaw
jawa: khair(:
fahad: mu kafo a7d yslm 3laich , elmuhm bacher ur cousins 7athrthum mswen bbq eb baitna 3ala bu ena 7deqtna kbera so t3aly
jawa: zain la tbche
fahad, thelfay , w la tnsen tyeben rfejtch awrad , y3ne etha tbe she is welcomed
jawa: ahhh shaklkk 7baitha=))
fahad: shako shako? thelfay 
jawa: bye=))

i hope 9j may7bha l2na she already loves a stupid guy with her own problems and broken heart.


i went inside w gam ysoulfon w hatha mnfs(: i will kill him , laish 9ayr che.

anyway we talked about everything 3ad bltv 76aw mbart qwya w gam ysoulfon 3anha , both abdulla and bader was surprised ena a7b elkorra;p abdulla said something made me  blush :::

abdulla: oh bader yalla lgait a7d yl3ab wyaak 3shan tfknee

bader laughed and didn't even looked at me , that pissssssssed me.


awrad called me and i went out to answer her(: mayth7k shfehum 3lay elyoum:'(

awrad: jawa jawa jawa
jawa:  HA
awrad: way3a t7chay 3adel
jawa: ya rou7 rou77iiiii ya ba3de kleee
awrad: kaaaaaaaakkkkk::::

i was shocked i almost dropped the phone , he was standing infront of the door , he shot the dirtiest look ever....

bader: walla mu kafoo.

and then he walked through the hall way ... tears found it way down to my cheek... i never cried that fast but this time? its different! but the question is why did he acted that way why? why ? why? i think i get it...

maybe because he saw the ID caller when fahad (my cousin) called, fahad mara kan makhth telfonee w yst3b6 chan yghyer esma eb my phone w smaa nafsa" 7beebb galbii" maybe when i talked to awrad and said "ya rou7 rou7ii ya ba3d klii" faham ghala6? i don't know but all i know that i have to do something about it but i can't. 

i saw him walking toward the room again w kan m3a9b jad! bdun mafaker i ran toward him

jawa: BADER BADERRR

he looked at me , passed me and entered the room , that was not a shock , that was like knifes slicing my heart! i never tried to talked to him i never done anything to him , and  when i try to show him that he was wrong ena faham ghala6!, he ignores me. my phone rang... it was my brother sloom

sloom: ha jawa wainch shklch thy3ty =))
jawa:ee kane yaya
sloom: shfech 9outch mu 6be3e gam tbchenn?

oh my god my brother is talking in front abdulla and bader , talk about embarrassment(:!!

jawa: kaka kane dasha elghurfa byee

i dried my tears w bsrr3a dshait elghurfa, i found  abdulla staring at bader with angry features!

abdulla: yalla e7na nst2thenn
sloom: ma tg9run w y36ekm el3afya , ma3a elsalama.

they walked out

sloom: jawa 9kray elbab ez3aj barra.

gmtt b9ker elbab and i overheard aconversation  between bader and abdulla

abdulla: ENT MATST7II 3ALLA WAAYHKK?? ..........


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CHAPTER16

Bader: jawaa *mtn7*

Jawa: hala?? , mshkurr wayd!

Bader: uhh 3fwaan ma swait shay, athach? Swalch shay?

Jawa: laa ma swaa shay , yala lazm arou7 ana bye

Bader: take care.

I was about to walk when I heard ' take care' my heart stopped, I smiled to my self and I walked again.


I paid my stuff and left the market, I went inside the car and told the driver to go home. I kept thinking and thinking and thinking...it was a coincidence ? Or he read my tweet? But we don't follow each other any more , since I blocked him! Hmm it must be a coincidence....but deep down I wish it wasn't , and the way he stared at his hands when I touched it? Y3ne I didn't mean it bas knt khayfa y6gagegun!akh anyway it was a GREAT coincidence... Or not

I went home laid on my bed and checked twitter.. Specifically his twitter. Bader's twitter...and I got really mad I felt like screaming breaking my phone and killing that witch. Probably you are wondering(: some stupid girl was replaying his tweets with questions w tstkhf damha:) NARFZTNE shtbeenn he is mine!! *chill jawa* wait wait is that jealousy? Nono it must be...hmm... Yes its jealousy(:! God how much I hate loving him. I was SOSOSO mad. I tweeted ' nitm(:'
I put my face on my pillow and kept screaming way way jad tnrfz. And I slept.


Next day I woke up with a massive headache. I took some panadol pills and went to the bathroom , then I got ready 3shan arou7 7g my brother in the hospital. I wore sleeveless white dress, with Armani
Denim jacket and silver flats, tied my hair into a slicked ponytail and I was ready to go!

I tweeted to 'bucks jabirya' then I went to the car and headed to starbucks , kan fathe yshwg! I ordered my usual and I sat waiting my order. My eyes was glued to the screen when someone passed me ,he was so close and his silver scent perfume filled my nostrils with happiness<3 I love this perfume jad! I lifted my head to see ........


BADER:') yes yess my bader. He saw me but he act like he didn't, his expression was.. I don't know something like *m39b and z3lan*::: my heart beats accelerated! Why is he *m93b and z3lan* I wish I could ask him!
Maybe I was the reason? Maybe he just find out about 'the block thingy' anyway he ordered and waited in the far corner:) the farest place from me. I was in another world worrying about what was up with him , that I didn't noticed my drink was done! I took it and went to car ,,all the way to the car I felt someone gazing on me ,I hope it was him.
I went inside the car and the driver headed to the hospital.


I went there I walked to the room but I didn't feel it , all I was thinking about is why bader acted like this? Why did he shot dirty stares as if I murdered his only love in life:)!


I entered the room and I saw my brother laying in the bed watching TV.

Slaiman: haalaa jawjawww taw ma thlmt elghurfaa

Jawah: blshna?(: bsmlah elra7man elra7em khal ag3ad b3den ebda t6nz(:!

Slaiman: atghshmar atghshmar ... hala bl7ub

Jawa: hala wala:::

We kept talking laughing then we watched a match it was between new castle and Manchester city, 6ab3an man. City fazaw 3-1.

 I was having fun with my brother bas my heart wasn't smiling.. I mean how could I smile?how could I!! Jad I just want to know why! Is it me? If it was what did i do?

Anyway so ra7 3laina elwakt w e7na nchouf mubaryatt w nsoulf so 9ar el3a9er , its usually the time for lunch , they bring this all healthy food for patient! But sloum was sleeping so....

*knock knock*

Jawa: don't bring food , the patient is sleeping he doesn't want to eat.

Omg fashla. It wasn't the sister bringing the food, it was.........

CHAPTER15

Jawa.

My eyes was gleaming from happy tears..I smiled the biggest smile in the history of the biggest smile of smiles ever :):::

He opened his eye after an accident and surgery and a coma.. And the first word he uttered is my name? That is something worth remembering forever<3
everybody know's that I was always the first In my brother's list.

Jawa:ameerrr * I went closer to him*
sloom: mm bs knt bchouf wainch

HEEEEE ISSSS SO DAAAMNNNN CUTTTE!
If he wasn't my brother.. I would certainly marry him:')<3

He scanned his eyes on us..he saw mom and smiled wildly... Then the doctor came

He told us how lucky he is and he should only drink fluids..for the next 24 hours and ask him a few questions and he left.

We kept talking telling him how does he feel and my father asked 3an esm his friend ely kan ysoug.. My brother was alerted by my father's question...

Sloom: uhhmm laish?

Dad:shnu laish ,chft 7altk ely ent feha! Bqait trou7 mn chees ahlk! mn wlda hatha?

Sloom: yuba 9j ehwa ghala6 bas ana ryaal w ma aftha7 rb3e law shnu , mu yahal e7na.

Dad: adre fek rayal , bas y3ne lazm aklm obouh ana.. May9er nkhle blshware3 che yd3m khalg alah w ehwa mt63a6e.

Khaled: yuba la ma3laik ohma khathaw elqthya w galw bedakhluna jena2ya w nyaba w 7ala fa khala9 they will take care of him.

Dad: khala9 ok

Jawa: yala ya jema3a ana ast2then..brd 7de t3bana

Sloom: bacher t3aly embcherr 3shan ra7 akun wlhan 3laichh

Jawa: twaath3ee ya akhee thy3ta bas khala9:'(!

Dad:jawa elbab yusa3 Jamal twklay=))

Jawa:aafaaaaa:(

Khaled: enqashee3eee=))

Sloom: thqe6uha thqe6uha=)) chfty matlgen a7d mthlee=))

Jawa: kaaaaaak yalaa bye::


The driver was waiting me..I was really tired but I know I wasn't going to sleep, I mean how can I ?the thought of Bader never leave my mind, even though I blocked him! The situation only got worst, and the hardest part is he didn't even noticed ,I don't want him to talk to me or anything but he didn't noticed that I was gone.

So I was making my way out of the hospital it was really quiet.. I went inside the car and I call mom, she went home back earlier because she had a massive headache. Anyway... I told her that I was going to the jam3ya, I wanted some stuff.

I went to the jam3ya .. Actually I went to markaz sultan. So r7t el6abeq ely t7t w kan 7ail fathe, knt mt9rg3a 7ail! Suddenly I heard someone whistle , I suddenly turned around to find a guy flirting:), great that's what I need(:!..my palm was sweating my heart beats got really faster... I was repeating ' bismlah' 'bismlah' he was chasing me w klsa3 ygrb so bsr3a abi a93ad wala bldray y6la3 eb wayhe bader. Yes my bader. I was more than shocked!..but He wasn't Surprised at all, maybe because I mean nothing to him!

Bader:ahlan jawa shlounch?

Ok that wasn't coming. Shgoul shrd OMG I can't speak ,I can utter the word 'zaina' but I couldn't do it infront of him...I just kept looking him in a shocked Expression

Bader:mmmm khair fe shay? Shfek la7g elbnya? Twakal okhouy!

The guy: w eb 9ftk mnu tdafe3 3anha ana kaife malk shghel ent ely ts'haaal.

Bader:yal 6ayb tra ana wld 3amha, gam a7achek bl6eba gtlk ethlf la eyelk shay mu zain

The guy: khayf mnk? La tswele feha grandizer w many mwkher!

Bader:MA TST777I 33333ALA WAYHK ENT? *shouting*

Bader kan b6g el9bay bsr3a mskt eda l2na adre etha 9ar 6ag magdar afachehum w manbe mashakel w mkhafer!

The guy left almost running bas kan gam ysb eb 9out 3alle.. Bader marad 3laih he was shocked, he was looking at my hand w ana maknt mstw3ba ena bas khayfa.... Bader said after ma tana7 for a minute maybe?:::

Bader.:.........

CHAPTER14

Okhouch w rab3a mt3a6en w mswen 7adth.

that was not coming!... i felt numb i couldn't even cry! my brother? MINE? he wouldn't do such thing! is he alright? is he going to live?or die! NONO..there wasn't even thoughts in my mind...i just stared at them emotionless! my face went pale! after minutes finally i came out with a word..

jawa:shdrakum?

khaled: twa eladela eljena2ya dagaw

so its a certain.. I fell on the ground crying! My dad came to me and carried me and lay me on the coach on his thigh and kept tapping on my back to calm me down

Dad:hathe mshakel el7yat t9er ma3a elshbab w klman yghl6 w enshala okhouch ygoum blsaalamaaa w tn7l elqthya!la tbchen jawa yala lazm nrou7la elmustshfaa ..I calmed down little bit..

Jawa: ngdar nchouffaa???

Dad: ee 7bebty yala bdlay 

I went to my room I changes into leggings an american eagle hoodie on top of my white tank top I already wearing.. I tied my hair in a messy ponytail. I went down stairs...

Kanaw na6rene blsyara we went to the hospital my mom kant td3e 6ol el6rej w khaled y7awl yhdehaa.. I went to the hospital w s2lna wain el3nya w r7na..bas kan fe ryaal mghter w mask awrag ...

*he was talking to my father*

The man: enta waled slaiman elx 

Dad: ee na3am , mn 7athrtk?

The man: ana mn eladelya eljna2ya w 3nde akhbar w tfa9el 7g el7adetha hathe

The sat on the chairs and the man started looking in his papers...

The man: 6ab3an wldk kan ga3ed 

blpassenger seat w ma3rof hatha akthar mkaan kha6er blsyara w y2de 7g e9abat qwyaa w fe 7alat elmoutt

Dad: la 7awla wala qwta ela blaah

the man: bas wldk m7thouth..6ab3an bajji elashkha9 ely kanw blsyara 9art fehm shlkhat b9e6a fgdrna nstjwbhum w nf79hum w kann ely ysoug ehwa elwa7ed ely mt3a6e w hatha t7awl ela elnyaba... W wldk f79naa mafe ay mada mamnou3a.

My dad face lit up! 

Dad: alah ybshrk blkhairr matg9er

The man: w blnesba 7g 7alta el97ya.. 6ab3an bl7adth dash ely kan ysoug eb shaba.. Lakn eb sur3at 120 f9art heltharba qawya fa 6ag rassa! bas el6aga yat 3nd man6aqat elanfff,enksar 6ab3an w 9ar nzeef bas kharji!fa faqad wa3ya lakn 7alta wayd zaina w be6al3una ba3ad sa3tain

Obouy sejad sajdat shukur! Ma aluma! Kan mtwaq3 wlda ya mayt aw sjn! My tears fell but they were happy tears... shkrt rabbe w omi 6ab3an 3younhaa naahar elneel =)) khaled was happy SO happy..

So we waited those 2 hours and it felt like years.. We finally saw the doors open.. And 2 nurces pushing the bed.. The bed that my brother was sleeping on!

They pushed him to his room, my father swaa elawrag w klshay! So we followed the nurces w 76ouh blroom.. we stayed around him for maybe 3 hours?We was quiet We was praying for him! ...ghezlan finally came! kan 3ndha emt7an!ma gelnalha ela lma khl9t..3shan ma twtar w aked mara7 tgdar t7l !!

He finally opened his eyes.. My mother eyes teared again we all gathered around him he kept quiet for minutes then he spoke. His first word was...... 

CHAPTER13

I woke up and check the time it was 2 pm and dalia is still sleeping... The first thing popped in my mind bader! I frowned but I remembered the great speech that dalia gave me and I tried to smile..

I unlocked my phone ignoring all watsaaps missed calls twitter dm's and mentions. I checked bader's profile scroll down his tweets. One of the tweets coat my eyes 'nitm' I really wanted to know what's wrong with him.. Is it because what I did?or maybe something isn't related to me! I saw a replay to a girl account and I just burned in my place... Jealousy got all over me!

Anyway I woke dalia up! We washed changed and went down stair to the kitchen to eat something.. We were starving jad!

We was eating french toast and talking when my mother came in...

Mama:jawa tra elyoum e7na 3azmeen abdulla w ahla blshaleh 7g elt3arf so zhbay nafsch w dalia t3aly wyaana g3day wyaa hal de3la 3shan mu tnshb eb reje zahga w zahga:::

Dalia:ahh eee hehe enshala khalty *she know what I was thinkingg about*

Mama: jawa sm3tene?:)wala lahya ma3a elakl:)::

Jawa:haa uh emm ee!

Mama:7mdlah w elshker:: *while leaving the kitchen*

I was shocked. I mean of course bader ra7 eyy! W I just blocked him!! It would be more than awkward. Jad way bad shit always find it way to me:)

Dalia: I know I know. But its fine shalehkum kberr mara7 yg3ad eb 7thnch ehwa...ra7 n7awl n9d 3ana as possible don't worry ;)!

Jawa: 7adch nar lma tfhmen bdun mat7cha::

Dalia: t7chay nafs elbanat mat3rfen?nar nar w klematch elskhefaa , 9eray bnyaaa=))

Jawa: mayth7k. Chub w eklay 3shan nbdl.

So we went upstaires.. I decided to wear colorful sundress, I let my naturally wavy hair down! Spread some light blusher on my face! It looked natural though! And I was ready to go...

My mother called..

Mama: jawa khl9taw?

Jawa: ee ka!

Mama: zain yala 3shan trou7on ma3a elsayg 3shan takhthun elagrath wyakum w b3den ana ayye wyaaa oboch!

Jawa: zain bye

jawa: dalloy bnrou7 wyaa elsayg heyaa bnmr starbucks!::

Dalia: awyaaaaaaaaa

We hit the road... I put my beats on and I played song from my favourite play list. David guetta list!! Getting over -david guetta.. Started blasting into my ears!

When the 'there is no getting over you' part came.. I smiled, it reminded me of bader and how I can't spend a second without checking on him or just stare at his beautiful picture <3

Dalia nudged me stw3bt ena grbna yam bnaider , yam my paradise in earth , I love that plaaccee it is the definition of happiness.

Dalia:jawo w 9umakh.

Jawa: ha ha!

Dalia: matben starbucks?

Jawa: ha ee embala!

Dalia:shibo rou7 starbucks

Shibo: jen mama

We arrived starbucks nzlna 6lbna and we were waiting our orders,, while my phone rang...

Jawa:khair?

Fahad: bsmlah elra7man elra7em. Asef yuba bbye=))

Jawa:tsthbl fahud:: khale9 shtbe?

Fahad: btyeen elshaleh?gaale obouy ako yam3a 3shan ekhtch t3aruf ma3a 3aylt zoujha

Jawa:ee Ana eb starbucks nkhl9 w nyy.w dalia wyay.

Fahud: ee zain 3shan elcousins klhum mne w nabe nl3ab kora bas t33rfen ma3arf al3ab bdunch:$

Jawa:ayaaabaaaaaaa , ee 3shan matm9khar:$:$ kana kana yayen 

Fahad:enzain abi starbuc... 

*6ou6 6ou6 6ou6*=))

Dalia: mara7 al3ab kora wyakum:)

Jawa: ee enty sh3jena:::

We took our orders and we went to the shalih 6b3an slmt 3laihum klhum but I didn't saw bader *relief* g3dt che 10 minutes w 93dna foug shwy shwy 3shan abdl l2na mara7 albs eb nfnouf:::

I wore one of my *a9far fsfori* swimming shorts to match my chelsea's jersey this: 

http://www.soccerjerseytown.com/media/catalog/product/cache/1/image/9df78eab33525d08d6e5fb8d27136e95/c/h/chelsea-third-jersey-2013-for-2012-13.jpg

I tied my hair into a ponytail and went downstairs mn elbab ely wara 3shan matfshl w amer jdamhm!

I went wala msaken mnsd7en na6rene:'( wala kan yabelhum 9ourra:'(

Elmuhm ana w fahad w 3eesa w 3ziizz w 7amanie  on a team w khaled w 7amad w aabdulah w  6alal w jassem on a team! *adre my cousins wayd*:::

L3bna le3b qawee w 6ab3an freqe ely faz w dalia gam t9wrne 3shan a76ha instaa:'(

Khl9na w knaa ywaa3aaaa so glna ena khnrou7 mac, r7na 3ala 2 cars akeed w g3dna eb 6awla wa7da kberra w 7mdlah dalia endmjt blwath3 w kna wanasa w th7k lajena mac kella=))..

Lma rdaina tsb7t w bdlt w nzlt 3shan ag3ad bl9ala lazm ag3ad shwya 3ad wyaa ekht abdulla w ahla njaml shwya:: nzlt r7t bg3ad wala la7tht ena bader ga3d yam abdulla

Wala wala magam achthb wayhe 9ar a7maarrrrrr. Wala faj2a omi..

Maama:jawa twch tfkren tyen? Khl9tay kora? Shd3wa 3ad 3abrenaa la7ga la7ga 3al koraa

Omi klsh ma sa3dt elmwqf:)

Jawa: heheheheh *magdrt agoul shay*

I coat bader laughing silently::: that made me smile..

Well nothing happend thanks god. The night was great I said goodbye to my cousins and dropped dalia and went back home..

3ala 6oul nmt knt 77777777ail daykha!! I woke up maybe 3 pm?ghslt badalt w nzlt!

Wala achouf loya w 9rakh w y7atun w omi wayhe m9foug!.. 

Jawa: yumma shfecch 

*dad. Khaled. Ghezlan* klhum khzune w sakten

Jawa: t7chaw sshsalfa!!!

Maama: okhouch okhouch!!

I panicked shfee okhouy!!

Jawa: yumaa shfeeee okhoy! 

khaled: .....................

CHAPTER12

block him.

yes I've decided to block bader, it will be really hard but its better! i have to forget him i had to..and since we are going to be family and see each other more i cant keep it awkward i have to act normal ..ugh how hard it could be?!

we ate and we finished and headed to the movie,,i didn't really watched it! i kept thinking about bader..would he notice?i don't think so! he must be a player like abulla called him and he must forgotten me!

the movie finished and i didn't even noticed!dalia nudged me..

dalia: jawoo shfech;/
jawa: ha?shfene? mafeni shay!
dalia: g9ay 3laich eb baaitch ntfham , kaife qrrt i will sleep over
jawa: tbene ayy(:? walla tben takhthen ra7tch(: khu elbait baitch y3ne:)
dalia:huh adre yala goumay
jawa: zain zain abi starbuck!
dalia; a9lan aked brou7 w entay 3azmtni
jawa:ok la tbchen (:

we went to starbucks ordered for take out and went home..

dalia tmout 3alla my round wooden chair so ra7at w g3dt dakhla w galtle shfech?

jawa: dalia its so hard i cant do it but i want to! god why did i habe to love him? its like canser(: only canser can be cured.
dalia:ok but its the right thing! you are strong enough
jawa: ok can you do it for me?
dalia: 36ene telfonch!
jawa: waitt..

i searched his name in twitter ,, i took last glances of his account.. even though i know that i will check his account every second!

i throw the phone at dalia and went to the bathroom,,i couldn't even cry! i felt numb!i didn't believe it!i didn't think that it would be that hard ,he was my first love and i hope last! its really painful! why ?why me? what did i do wrong?why did Cupid had to shoot me with his stupid love arrows?
he HYPNOTISED ME , i remembered everything about him! if i could go back in time! i wouldn't press that follow button!


we spent the rest of the night playing fifa , i lost the game and i usually don't.. dalia noticed and she was worried..she kept quiet for a moment then told me something,although it made my tears fall but it gave me hope made me feel better! she told me....

                                             if you truly loved something..leave it

                                                it will go far away from you but...

                    if its worth it , if it was really meant to be urs forever and ever..

                                                       if it loved you honestly..

 

                                               it will comeback to you....when?

 

                                                 exactly in the right time so..

.

                                                         wait and see if he...

 

                                                           worth it or not...

her words bring to the life back to me! i hope bader comes back in time! when i can be his..forever!

jawa: a7bch! tfheemeeeeen!=)) anyway khnswe shay mynoun!
dalia: qa9ban 3laich! , nag9a ynun?
jawa: 3ndiiiiii fkraaa! dalia  please:(:::
dalia: asma3?
jawa; shraych nrou7 eljam3ya w nbls mask malut scream w che w nkhr3 elnass w nshtre chna mako shay w n6la3!
dalia: ynety?LA.
jawa: wala b9er wanasaa 3afya ;c
dalia: zain yalla!
jawa:7baaiiiitchhh! yala t7mst yala!

we went w khr3na elnass w wa7da 6ag rasha mn elkhr3a =)) w shtraaina chna mako shy:: we went out laghing rdaina elbait myten the7ek w b3den we slep!

           

                   

       

CHAPTER11

those questions kept revolving until i slept..

so i have a second cousin i haven't mentioned yet , her name is dalia and shes 2 years older than me but she understands me and a day cant pass by without talking to her..

so i woke up in the morning and i felt like telling dalia the "hall thing" i was shy and it took millions of years 3shan tfham(:! we kept talking and talking and we decided to go out today to talk about this..first i refused because "ast7ii:'(::" bas dalia lma t7anchh w magdar ardhaa;'(:: anyway i hung the phone , i forcefully got out of my seducing bed and went to to the bathroom and filled the tub with extremely cold water played my music and plunged in..it was really refreshing, freezing bath tubs make me think and relax my mind!

after 1 hour and 50 minutes passing i got out did my business and went down stairs i saw khaled and my dad sitting , slmt 3laihm w r7t elm6bakh adwr shay ynwkl..wella a7d gam y6g eljaras,,6let mn eldreshha i saw a man figure holding a bag , ana nathare mn b3ed mu zain y3ne elahya2 ely b3eda i see it blurry.. i thought ena sayg y3ne mnu byeb chees eb hal thahare! so i went to the door 3shan ab6laaa..

dad: ha mnu yay hal 7aza
jawa:sayg yayb chees tlga rabe3 omi wala shay *screaming while opening the door*

i opened the door and i wish i didn't..it was BADER.

i was more than embarrassed ,  shocked (ya arth ebla3e ma 3layke)

bader:halla ekhty ana okhou abdulla w ehwa yayblkum 7elw
jawa:ahh eehh ahh shkran

mad eeda y36ene elchees w ana mu mstw3ba..

bader: jaw..ekhty tfthlay elchees
jawa:ah shukran

khthet elchees w ana arjf w dshett w knt twne mtsb7a w bdla so shkle kan not bad.

i went inside w glthum ena abdulla yayben 7elw w chee

dad:ahh khush nas mbyn elsana3 3laihum mayg9roun
khaled:36ene bthougg
jawa:yal b6ainee=))
dad:enty matkhlen a7ad eb 7ala ?36e ythug:::
jawa:enshala enshala::

i gave them the bag and i was heading to my room but i remember that i have to ask my father ena ba6la3 wyaa dalia w adre mara7 ygoul shay ,, ahle y7bun dalia wwaayd::

jawa: yubba nsait agoulk shkthr a7bkkkkk
khaled: ybba tra gam tm9l7
dad;adre fehaaa =))
jawa:khaled chub! yubaa dalia tslm 3laik w tgouulkkk ehya wlhana 3lay w tbene a6la3 wyaha
dad: wyaa dalia? 3yal okk w slmay 3laiha goulelha khatzorna mzman 3anha !

6ab3an bas sm3t ok shf6tt w masm3t bajji el7ache=))

i texted dalia ina okay enty mrene elsa3a 6:30 w goulele gblha wain brou7..

i laid on my round mahogany wooden chair that looks like this:

i put my my headphones and played paradise -cold play,, it is really not my type of songs but this song? make me feel like i was laying on the sand in front of beautiful tropical island beach..i took my sketch book and a pencil and i kept sketching and i didnt recognise what was i drawing until i was done! i draw this..

i guess i was just following my heart...i added a small B letter inside the heart and i looked at it with a smile! it was simple but it expressed much!

dalia called my and told me to get ready and we where going to avenues and she will throw egg at my window "etha l63t'ha bara" =)) so i wore this:

i let my naturally wavy hair down put some lipstick ans mascara and i was ready to go!

mratne dalia w galtle enha 7zjt film w ena khnrou7 nakel eb shake shak l2nha mshtheta

we went there and headed to shakeshak , g3dna w we talked i told her what did i felt i told her that..

i love him but i would be upset if loved me back and i would be too if he didn't and i would be upset if he did talked to me and i also would if he didn't! its complicated and it was exactly what did i felt!

so she suggested something.. it was hard sooo hard! but i have no other choice ! so i decided to.....

CHAPTER10

Ghezlan :LAISH ml6khaaa ksheen syaartii lipstick!!!

I was going to die , I was afraid that abdulla told her! I didn't do anything! But loving him made me feel guilty!

Jawa: ahh asfa al7ien anthfaa
Ghezlan: yala jdame

That night.. I couldn't stop thinking , what will happen , I'm in love with my sister future husband's brother! and I'm pretty sure he doesn't love me back, and even though he did ! That would change nothing!!

I will see him more often.. He will be a family member , I was excited but afraid...

Days passed and today is my sister's melcha she was so happy!!

we woke up early that day! We went to spa in the avenues! and she insisted that we eat shake shak(: , hal 3ayla klna broud:::: ,after eating we went to the saloon , she made her hair in beautiful classic big waves and then she picked some silver nail polish .. About me? I decided to make my hair slick ponytail , and for the nail polish? I picked Tiffany blue , I love that colour!

We went home , and did the make up part ,ghezlan looked?gorgeous !! Ghezlan wore this:

and I wore this :

I had to get ready before ghezlan so I can go down and help my mom!

Ghezlaan was scared!! So she was ready waiting in the room.. I came to her w gtlha get ready eb tnzlen after this song..

So now ghezlan is coming down stairs! She is more than terrified ,she came down.. she looked beautiful and the camera flashes blinded her eyes::: everybody went to take pictures with her! Me and my mother and her closest friend 3athoub teared! But happy tears you know:p

The dj announced that the women's should be wearing hejab by now because the broom is coming::: *abdulla* he came inside .. making his way to the ghezlan , they were throwing flowers and camera flashes blinded his eyes too:: , then after a while they left , I'm sure that ghezlan cheeks is super lava red by now . abdulla is a gentlemen and her will take a good take of her...

Today was great I'm so happy for ghezlan.!

So I laid in my bed and I kept thinking.. there was a question revolving in my mind? Actually questions......

is he really a player like abdulla called him ?
should i  unfollow him and act like i never met/knew him before?
would we be really close since my sister is marrying his brother ?

CHAPTER9

Abdulla: jawa ghezlan , hathi ekhti anwar w hatha bader okhouy!


Bader was more than shocked w kan mbyn 3laih ,so slmt 3ala anwar w I sat..I couldn't greet him!I couldn't even look at him how can I say hi to him? Oh god!!! Ghezlan nudged me

Ghezlan: *whispering* ya khara laish ma slmty 3laih shfech

Jawa: haa madre


Abdulla looked a little bit mad but he didn't really show it anyway.. We ate we talked we had fun but I couldn't even lift my eyes up! Even ghezlan noticed..

So abdulla insisted to pay the check , we thanked him ..we got up and anwar left before us because she had a class in her uni. So the boys said that they wanted to go to the bathroom , and the exit is near the men's bathroom so..

Ghezlan : jawa sbgene elsyara w shghlay elmukayf 3shan tbrd elsyara brou7 el7mam

Jawa: okay

I passed the bathroom and I heard abdulla was talking to bader

Abdulla: bader law sm7t wakher 3an lbnya malk shghl feha ! Mbyn 7a6 3aink 3laiha w shaklk eb tl3ab nafs ma tl3ab 3al banat elbaji! ana mabe akhser ghezlan eb sbt swalfk fa wakher 3an jawa wala mara7 y79lk 6ayb

I was more than shocked , I spilled some tears without feeling...faj2a wala y6l3un eb wayhe , they were shocked

abdulla: jaw..
Jawa: forget about it , don't tell anything to ghezlan.

I walked away leaving them speachless.. It was really hard for me ,I just wanted to be my self again the girl that didn't care about someone other than her friends ,the girl that only wanted to hang around and mess around and get in trouble! God I miss her!

The ride back home was silent..I turned to look at ghezlan bas she was driving with a smile on her face.. Ugh at least one of us is happy , so I decided what I will do..
We went back home I went to my room
I took my phone out and I lay down..I decided to unfollow bader.. So I searched his name I pressed the unfollow button , it wasn't easy at all! I pressed it and my tears rolled down my face I closed my eyes and I thought if I was doing the right thing and I am , but it hurts! So ghezlan came to my room and started talking and talking about abdulla I was listenning but not 100% I was lost in my mind, suddenly her phone rang , she checked the ID caller it was #abdulla , her cheeks went red and she said that she will go to the jam3ya 3shan eb tshtre aghrath ,she took her keys answered the phone while leaving the house , I'm happy for her

I played some music , MY music.. Titanuim by david guetta! And time passed suddenly I heard ghezlan shouting at me , I took of my headphones ..

Ghezlan: SHMSWYA ENTAAAAY!!!....

CHAPTER8

Ekhtkum Kha6bha wa7d!

I was shocked and happy... my sister? My best friend?my second mother!!I can't believe it!!...

Khaled:mabbrok ghezzzlaano!!
Sloom: mbrookk ba6bu666!!, w mno mgrud el7ath hatha=))
Mom:saloum! Yuz 3ad!
Dad: abdulla alx
My sister look at me and she was shy,, my eyes teared!,, I got up from my place and hugged her while tearing..
Khaled: blshna dramat elbnat 3ad=))
Jawa:chub chub=))
Jawa: alf mbrokk ghezlaan, a7bcccch!
Ghezlan:hehehe qa9ban 3laich:$!

my dad was really happy!ghezlan awal wa7da tzwj fena! W kan mstans w ygoul anhm khush nass.

Mom: ha shglty eee?
Ghezlan:...
Mom: ghezlano?
Sloum: yuma shfech matchoufenha mst7ya=))?ana fhmt=)) ee yuba ee:::
Ghezlan: hehehe:$


Ghezlan.. She is really shy and quiet!


Ghezlan: jawo khan93ad hermes fe belt w dress w bag 3ajbene wayd!
Jawa: yala mshaina
Ghezlan: yuba e7m
Dad: shfech yuba?
Sloum: elkart yuba tbe elkart=))shfekm ma7ad yfhmha w ehya 6ayra?=)) , ghezlan I'm there for you babe;)=))
Ghezlan: chub sloum=)) , my life saver::
Dad: 3ad ma ngdar nrdch twch mkh6uba
Jawa: feha 6aalabt?=)) yuma bacher kh6bele
Mom: yuuuuh 3ad , twklay jawa 7bebty:::

We went to hermes and we saw what ghezlan wants.. The dress looked great so is the bag but she didn't find the belt!

Ghezlan: tra ehwa 3nda okhoo esma bandar chna? 6agtch ehwa! w ekht akbar mne eb sena esmha anwar! So omaa w omi etfqaw bacher ena n6la3 't3aruf'w che so mu tfshlena
jawa: afaaaaaaa=))

So we continued shopping and went back home..I went uptairs I deside to do something... I deside to unfollow bader! Every time I read his tweets I felt numb I felt just crying so it would be hard at first but maybe its better? I enterd twitter hesitantly and I saw the timeline.. It was filled with his love great tweets! And one of the tweet coat my eyes is ' شفتك حبيتك تمنيتك و ما حصل ... لكن مأمن غيرك محتل أوساط القلب #J'
My heart beats accelerated ..a smile formed on my face, so I layed in my bed.. Played without you - david guetta put my beats on closed my eyes with a smile on my face and slept...

So today is the BIG day for ghezlan.. We re going out abdulla and his brother and sister
 So I wore three courter sleeves white dress
With simple tight details from the top and flow from the down ,it reach exactly above my knees, and my foshya tory burch flat and also tory burch matching bag! Framed my eyes with ayeliner ,and painted my full lips with faded foshya lipstick and about my hair? I let it down into big simple waves and I was ready to go!

And ghezlan was wearing beautiful yellow dress with silver necklass and silver flats with her colorfull chanel bag! And about her hair it was staight and simple make up!
She looked gorgues !

We went to nino -beach side! , we found abdulla sitting in a table alone waiting us ..we was approaching the table he get up and greated us! Ghezlan cheeks? Was lava red!
Abdulla: shlounch ghezlan?shloun elshghel wyach
Ghezlan: tmaam el7mdlah
Abdula: enty jawa , shlounch?
Jawa:zaina 7mdlah
Abdulla: ee al7dmlah , mshala ay 9af wa9la!
Jawa: 10
Abdula: oh baduur akbar mnch eb sena:p

Ana glbi shwy wgf , mu bandar? Haw shfech jawa ydl3un bandar badur =)) ugh I got to stop thinking about him!

Jawa: ee mshlaa

Ghezlan: wain ekhtk ely gtli 3anha?
Abddula: wala ana l2na kan 3nde mu3mlat zyada ely 36enyaha elbank elmrkazi 3rfteha? fa e6ret a6wl mnak, fa seda yet mne mardait elbait! Fa ohma yayen mn elbait 3ad msa3 galoule bl6rej , tlgen gthbthum elza7ma!
Ghezlan :ee hehee

I wanted to leave them alone to let them take their space.

Jawa: ana ast2thn brou7 el7mam

So I went to the bathroom 3dlt my make up l3bt eb telfone shwy sprayed some perfume 3dlt sha3re and then I went.. So I was typing eb my phone and walking so ma shft jdame..rf3t rase chan achouf 6awla shwy b3eda I thought enha 6awltna bas rf3t dqqat I SAW BADER! W I couldn't see who's next to him because the wall was blocking the view !freaked out! So bsr3a r7t other side of m63am because aked ghl6t w yet mne!I called ghezlan!


Jawa: ghezlan madre wain el6awla!thy3t
Ghezlan: ma 3laih ka ana yayatlch
Jawa: y3ne eslub l2na 3abdala yamch?lol.
Ghezlan: e kane!

I laughed::::
I walked little bet and I saw her waving, I went after her wala abdula sister and brother was there!
And I was shocked that ghezlan bring me to the same table that I saw bader sitting on in the first......

CHAPTER7

Jawa ana 7baitch latgoulin shloun ,ana shftch twice w I couldn't stop thinking about you! You are different, maybe every guy say this but what should I do , I really mean it and I want you to be mine

When I reading the message that BADER sent.. The phrase from david guetta -she wolf "you loved me and I froze in time" was playing again and again in my mind! Jawa mn 9jch wakta?=)) I felt lifeFULL I felt happy but I also felt.. astonished in a way I don't know how!! I excused my self to the bathroom I called awrad and told her every thing she was happy , but I wasn't... Wonder why? once again my family trust comes on top of anything.. I feel proud of my self rejecting the one I love but.. It hurts! Like A LOT.
So with help from awrad I was managed to type this:

Jawa57x: thanks for sharing your feeling bas lazm t3rf shay ana mu mtrbya 3ala hal shay law shnu kan elsbab ok?trbet wayd a7san mn ely ga3d tgoula!!w I will not lose my family trust over anything. Hope you understand.

THE_BADER: 7ta law z3lt shwya , kbrty eb 3aine wayd jawa!! Asef wayd..w alah a3lm enah a7bch mn glbi! Yalah enshala etha alah katbch le blmustqbl bl7alal!

I blushed.. I don't why but it felt just cute and he is making this more damn painful!!

Jawa57x: w atmana matsoulf wayd y3ne mala da3e you know that I'm following you for your tweets nothing else.

THE_BADER: 7a6'er , enshala


I wrote all this looking all not caring cold hearted.. But infact behind that screen.. I sent what was I typing with my eyes raining *7elwa eyes raining e3jbtne=))* elmuhm....I washed my face put a smile on and went to my family:

Mom:jawa t2khrty , bsr3a g3day oboukm begoulkm shay
All of us: 3saa khair *and we were staring at my mother and father , I looked at my sister and she was shy.. I didn't get it? What's wrong!!!

Dad:...

CHAPTER6

Awrad.

It was mention from her, and another 3 rt's from bader , I smiled widely! My heart sank and even though you think I'm over re-acting I'm not , I really felt this way, so I RTed awrad mention and slept with a wild smile

Days pasted and destiny didn't make us meet again..every weekend I go to 360 he goes to hilton or expo and the opposite , but I didn't love him any less.. Only more!

So days passed, and one day awrad was sleeping over , we were playing fifa , listening to music and reading magazines talking, awrad said that she wants to go to the bathroom ,so I lay down and I checked my ask.fm , I got a question saying 'adre ena bainch w bain bader shay , get away please' I was shocked! I was freaked out! Awrad came..

Awrad: shfech shfech
Jawa: check this out
Awrad: chill chill , mat3rfen swalf elbnat , bas 3shan swalch rt y3ne ehwa y7bch w tlgen ehya tg6 nqzat w ehwa 7agrha ma3laich don't answer , delete the question w forget about it.
Jawa: ok give me the phone
Award: oh you got a dm
Jawa:dm? Huh ? From who! Give me the phone!!
Awrad: hach hach la tmouten=))

It was from bader!I was shocked-happy-something I can't describe.. But the surprise he was apologizing?

Jawa:ba- ba- der
Awrad: adre shft gbl la a36ech , read=))

THE_BADER: ana asef w 7gch 3ly mu qa9di afrg bainch w bain a7d t7bena lma aswelch rt w chthi. I got a question saying 'b3d 3an jawa 7bebty ok la ath7bk'

So with help from awrad I sent this:

Jawa57x: okhouy ent fahm shay ghaala6 mne , ana maklm 9byan ana mu mtrbya 3ala che w mu swalfe!, shay thane I got a question too about you but forget about it I'm deleted it. And please don't answer urs and thankyou.

THE_BADER: asef ekhty , enshala.

So I was happy shocked and I couldn't stop thinking about it.. Well we continued the night messing around then we slept.

So days passing , and he send me a dm asking about something I was so happy from the inside but I only answer *3ala gad elsu2al* eb m3na thane *adgra* it really hurt!! But I feel also proud of my self, I mean I could've talked to him more but I didn't that how my parent raised me!

So its saturday and I'm bored. I called my sister ghezlen:

Jawa:haala bl7elwa
Ghezlan: jawa? Ba6lay ma9la7a yr7am omch:'(
Jawa:afaaa, zain ok bas al7ien zhgaana ana
Ghezlan: 3ala hal eldrja el7elwa ely yaybt'ha magdar agoul la , thelfay badlay
Jawa: enty? NAR
Ghezlan: uhh adre , yaala now ana bl nail bar ma3a 3athoub *her friend* akhl9 w amrch w choufay etha fe khoush aflam
Jawa: ok bye!!

So I checked cinnescape mako khush aflam , so I wore my gold skinny jeans with tucked in black top with simple gold details and short black blazer with my black prada and black studded flats


Framed my eyes with eyeliner and mat red lipstick. I made my hair into slick ponytail and I was ready to go.

I called my sister and suggested to go slider since there is no any good movies are on.

So we went we ordered and she started talking:

Ghezlen:so jawa tathkren hathak elmuwathf ely wyana , ely esma 3abudlla? Ely yshgtghel bl RO blbank!
Jawa: yes?
Ghezlen: he's so cute! Tkhyly he is funny ma3a klman w mu7trm w mu nafs the others! W daymn ygoul 7g elbnat ely wya blsection ena 9eraw nafs ghezlen thgela!
Jawa: wow::
Ghezlen: w tkhyly thursday he said that he wants my father number , I was surpiced chan ygoul 3shan mu3amala 7g 7saba abe 2akd shay mna
Jawa: yeah?
Ghezlan: but 7sab obouy asasn mala shghel blsection ely ehwa fe, y3ne atwaq3 ybe eb mwthu3 thane..
Jawa: like what?
Ghezlan: e7m madree.

So the food arrived, we ate and talked tmshena later we went home!we had fun , I love ghezlan

So.. one day I was out with my family ,we went to chocolate bar -alhamra ,talking and stuff , while we were siting I checked my phone! It was a dm from bader! My world let up whenever I read his name!

THE_BADER:...

CHAPTER5

LOVE.

yes was in love with a girl who now means nothing to him..but i know that he still love her..!
i mean there have to be a reason for all those inspired tweets , she must be his inspiration. how lucky she is. 

it was hard for me to believe that , bas to be honest?even if he doesn't met/loved this girl i will never tell him my feelings even if he does have feeling for me and told me about it , you must wonder why?and because in my mind my family trust comes on top of anything else.

so days pasts i loved him more and more by the day ..anyway its Thursday! i woke up on a call from awrad..

awrad:JAWWA!ELYOUM BROU7 360 7JZT FILM FAST 6 S2LAY OMCH BSR3A 3SHAN ASWE CONFIRM!
jaw:t7lfeeeeeeen!ok jad  babche jad!ok now aklm mamii bye
awrad:mami=))?

6o6 6o6 6o6...=)) *poor awrad*

I'm running down the stairs almost breaking them , i went to the kitchen and saw mom!

jawa: halla blii lfane ya hala beh 3dad dgat glbi fe ghyabah , hala eb mamaty asa3dch ebsshayy?
mom: tben flous?t6l3en? wala t66lben shay 3jbch blenternet?:)
jawa;afaa may9er adl3 mamati bdun shay y3ne?:(
mom: mu youm elkhames hal 7aza:)?
jawa:wala anch tfhemene , elmuhm yuma tkhyly bas tkhyly fe film 9arle na6rta sna w awrad blqa9ub lgat mukan mama pleeeeeeeease
mom:ok 3shan 7antch mu 3shanch w twne sa7ba cash ekhhthay mn boki mu takhthen elbu6aqa!
jawa:yuma enty ?NAAAAR ,a7bch !

so i went fast ,, called awrad and told her that my mom said yes so she can confirm.. i washed my face went down to have lunch with my family
so klman kan mwjud , w ana 6ab3an bas grga grga grga .. grgt akthar mn ma klait! so ghslt 93dt foug w i got ready... and i wore this

:

and i let my naturally wavy hair down , i framed my eyes with eyeliner and some fade red lip gloss and i was ready to go..

i went down staires

sliaman:trana bwdech ok b6bu66
jawa:alaahh wanasa ok yalla , bye ya jma3aa
dad and mom; der balch la t2khren

we went inside my brother's pepsi blue porsche GT3
slaiman: pick a song
jawa: harlem shake
slaiman: y3ne tbene adous 7ail ha?=))
jawa; 7adaaaaaa
slaiman: get ready w 76ay 7zamch bas khal agoul d3a2 elrkub
jawa:ok
sliaman: avenues wla 360/
jawa:360
slaiman: here we go!

every time i ride wIh my brother??? its like an adventure !we race with other cars w n3de 3laihm!wala kan wanasa,w9lna 3nd elgates elkbera malut 360.

slaiman:ha stansty?=))
jawa: asss usuaaalll aked!
slaiman; glad , yal dgay 3al awrad
jaw: ee i texted her , na6rtne 3nd cr
slaiman : okay take care w derbalch w hach flus zyada
jaw: mama 36tne bas magoul la=))
slaiman:6l3ay 6l3ay=))
jawa: a7bk yala bye
slaiman bye "blow a kiss"

i entered the gates and headed to CR , i saw awrad setting in a table holding her phone .. r7t mn wraha w grbt yam athunha w 9rkt , she jumped mn elkhr3a=))

awrad:zaina el7mdlah entay shlounch thanks for asking i miss u more :)
jawwa: chub chub oh hatha 7gii *knt a22sher 3ala elpower horse with flavor that was on the table*
awrad: mu kafo bas ee
i sat w start drinking w talked len ma9ar 7zat filmna
so we was on the sclater that get us to the cinnescape w i was telling awrad about the ride with my brother sloom w ashra7 w mnf3la. i heard a fimiliar laugh behind me..my heart froze but i couldn't turn around i just couldn't.. i did have the chance to see his face but i couldn't..it was bader i know his laugh , the same one from the chalet!we got off the sclater and headed to cinema gates i turned around but i couldn't find him between the crowd...i was sure that it was him ! ahhh just listeing to his laugh made my heart sink!

anyway we went to the movie  kan eb ekht9ar? NAAARRRRRRRRRR
6b3an gbl la ykhl9 elfilm eb rub3 sa3a 6l3t r7t 7jzt b+f w rdait elfilm =)) y3ne shswe adre etha 6l3na bkun za7ma w eb nan6er wayd...
anyway khl9 elfilm w e7na nazlen bldaray  kan ehwa *bader*9a3ed but unforuatly he didn't see me , i only saw him! we went to B+F and we talked and i told awrad,  she was happy but i wasnt! i mean i hate how i am inlove jad!! i
m not even sure if is it love but i hope not!!

we went back home and i seriously had fun , i thanked my family sat little bet with them then i said goodnight and went to my room, i changed prayed and i went to bed.. i i checked my phone, i had a twitter notification from..

CHAPTER4

jawa POV: i opened my eyes and my eyes landed on him , i felt really heart broken ,i felt like I needed attention from him i need something from him , i really hate the person i became to , i always FELT  completed , but now? hell no! i need to be completed by HIM!


anyway.. we went to seashell and ate , nothing really happened so... its saturday morning! god how much i miss awrad!! she's my second cousin and closest friend so i called her:
 jawa: hala bl7ubbb
awrad:haa jawa:hatha jeza ely y9unk?:")
 awrad:khl9ay..bnaaaam jawa:elyoum b7der, khan6la3?
awrad:w mat3rfen tg3den blbait enty ?
 jawa: ok bmrch at 6
 awrad: zain wain bnro..


 6o6 6o6 6o6.... =))

so i did the same thing that i've been doing for months... i checked bader recent tweets and questions in ask. Its became like a routine but a one that I really like to do...I enjoy knowing more about him it feels like talking to him without doing anything wrong. So its 5:30! And I still didn't get ready *always late* I wore my ted baker black dress with simple details and my colourful summer collection chanel bag ,I let my naturally wavy hair down , I dipped some lip gloss and was ready to go  !

 Mrait awrad w zftni for being late ,we went to maki -burj jassem. 6ab3an kan za7ma we ate we *7shaina*::: we had fun. I  dropped her home and I went to mine. and Before I went sleep I checked bader  profile tweets and questions ,but something have coat my eyes , it was an answer in ask.fm ! He was in...


SO guess why is it a short post?BECAUSE the action is comming and i would like to start it in new post!! ENJOYYY AND FEEDBACKS!!

CHAPTER3

the driver:). he was taking patrol from the car for the jet.

i don't know why but i felt  a bet disappointed  , a bit but i don't know why !!!
anyway i  took my stuff and headed to the beach , i sprayed some bannana boats i put my beats on i played sexy bitch -david guetta and i rode my jet! i spent ours racing with my cousins and *atflsf shwy:::* i had fun w i got tanned!

i was heading back to the shore i saw two tall figures , i couldn't recognise since the sun blinded my eyes. i got closer i saw one figure  coming closer i realise that its fahad but one of the figure was standing at the back maybe one of his friends
so i went to fahad :
jawwa: 6afk abaay abayy twaa shalakht'hum m9khrt'hum w t3rf shloun atflsf blsuperr w tsabgna shlkht'hum abay jad 6afkkkkkk
*w 3ad lma jaw atshta6 w tflm w tnagz*
the figure in the back rf3 rassa w the7l
my eyes met his and his bader !my bader the one i can't stop thinking of
i was shocked
fahad:jawoo kamlay shfech wain r7ty
jawwa:you3ana bye
i went back to the shailh i was shocked ,shhal 9edfa could It be ? am i dreaming? ymkn ga3 akhrf ashya2! w you3ana? shhal trge3a? akhhh 9j you3ana 3add. elmuhm abay i can't believe it the one i can't stop thinking of is down stairs setting with my best cousin fahad.

abi akel ya jema3a. AKEELLL. i called fahad:

jawa: hala blii lfane ya halla behh 3dad dgaat glbi fe ghyabhh
fahad; tben awdech starbucks aw aghdech eb seashell 3adel?:D
Jawa: yaaaa faaaahmmmnieeeeee
fahad: mako.
jawa:y3ne ent tstans w tkhlene ma3a ur cousins eld3lat?:( fhuuuuud
fahad: zain bas tra rfeje wyay st7ay 3ala wayhch shwya ba shwya y3ne
jawa:ha?lala khla9 shb3ana a6frk ana bye

fahad stghrb?hathe mu awal mara t6la3 ma3a wa7d mn rab3a? shsalfa?jawa matkhsh 3alay shay!
a7nch 3laiha w achouf sh9er lyoum etha 6l3na.. he called her

fahad:jawa t3aly tra bader rad bas ana wyach
jawa:9j?khla9 ok

fahad gam yfker..jawa shaftlha mu 3ala ba3ath'haa?mu 3waydha che!

fahad:bader bnrou7 seashell t3al bas rou7 dawr boki 3al ba7ar w ana a7rr elsyara

fahad ra7 elsyara w yat jawa
jawa:shfek mat7rk
fahad swa nafsa ma sm3ha w mtn7 eb telfona faj2a enft7 elbab w shaft bader wayha en9fg w bader th7k
fahad nou3a freee bas shwy 3a9ab 7ass fe shay.
elmuhm rkbaw elsyara klhm .
jawa:bsr3a bsr3a bsrr3a 7e6 99.7
fahad: 7a6en rabiosa?=))
jawwa:eeeeeeeee

jawa  closed her eyes forgot about bader and started singing the spanish accent just like shakira  , she was?sexy!
bader tana7 bas ehwa nou3a wayd mo2db so bsrr3a he removed his eyes w mssk his phone acted not interested with her beautiful voice! she opened her eyes and .....