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my world stopped, I cant explain what have I felt, but I was happy that I couldnt hide my smile and love, it was obvious, to everyone that I love him too

dad: mn gadna ya om 3abdullah law ebnasbkum w atmana hal shay, elray w elshour 3nd jawa

om 3abdullah: alah yhadkum hal tha7ka kelha w mu mwafqa??, ekhthuha mne emwafqa, 3adel jawa?

Im sure I was a tomato by now, that I couldnt raise my face, I was literally freezed

masma3 elaa yebab ommi!

I smiled even more and raised my head slowly, my eyes met bader who was setting in the end across the table, I suddenly felt the time just stopped, I couldn't feel anything nor anybody around us, I felt completed and I felt a connection that I never felt before! I saw the future in his eyes,  I felt that he wasn't looking at me, I felt like he was looking through me, my thoughts quickly rushed through my mind and I realized that I was staring deeply at him and I quickly ended that amazing moment and went back to reality by looking down at my plate

dad: bas bader 3alla shar6

bader: amer 3ammi

dad: mayamer 3adwuk yal ghally, entta tkh6bha 3shan tet3rfoun 3alla ba3ath bas ma tetzawjounn ella lma tkharaj enshala! adre fek rayal w gad elms2ulya w 3shan chhthie rthait, bas lazm 3al aqal tkhle9 eljam3a.

my dad will always be my man who protects me from everything, even from the things that I love the most 

bader: akeed 3ami mn ghair ma twa99i  

dad: kaffuu walla, wane3ma eltrbya yabu abdullah

bo abdullah: tslam yal ghally hatha mn 6eb a9lek.

we kept talking, actually they kept talking and I couldn't utter a word, I was happy,shy, lost minded..

yet I could feel a pare of eyes are gazing at me, I knew to who they belong to..

every time I raise my eyes I see him gazing and smilling and I quickly look down, those eyes just have the power that I cant resist 

the time passed so quickly, it was 11, and we were about to leave

bu abdullah: matenmalun walla, yalait hal yam3a dayma w matng633

my dad: ebsher yabu abdullah ma6albt shay

my mother: mashkoureen 3al est'thafa el7elwa

um abdullah: 7yakum 7yakum elsa3a elmbarkkaa!

we walked to the car, I didn't want to leave I didn't..

mama: jawa rou7ay choufay ghezlan galt btye m3ana elshalaih ehya w anwar

jawa: okay!

I couldn't be happier, I walked fast to the chalet and hopping to see bader

I entered the chalet and found no one,I was a bit disappointed .. I climbed the stairs and went to the girls room

I found ghezlan closing her bag and anwar was in the bathroom

ghezlan: ha 3rousatna, sh3ndch?

lalala, enough e7rajj for today

jawa: way chub, yalla ghezlan eb namshe, mentaw yayen?

ghezlan: embala ka khal te6la3 anwar w eljna6 zahba, naday elkhdama khatshelhum

jawa: enzain 

I went downstairs to the kitchen to  find the maid, I entered  and I saw bader, he looked at me and smiled, also he looked like he was searching for something.. 

bader: ha shtsween mne, you3anaa?

jawa: la eb namshe, bas abe elkhdama 3shan eljan6a malt ghezlan tsa3dha fa tshelha le elsyara

I was nervous, talking fast and in a not understanding way

bader 6al waray, i looked behind me to see if someone was there..

jawa: shfek? 

bader: la achouf mnu la7gch, haday haday

he is funny toooo,  I couldn't hold my laugh 

jawa: okay ana lazem arou7 bye

bader: la7tha jawa

my name, I really really love my name when he say it, jawaa.. its like magic!

jawa: hala?

bader: telphoni thaye3

i was a bit disappointed , I thought that he would say something else and wait minute, ana shako eb telfona?

bader while laughing: shfech tan7tay?

jawa: hehe la bas y3ne mastw3bt 

bader: telfonch m3ach?

Im confused., if his phone is lost, what mine have to do with it?

jawa: ee?

bader while laughing: matenfa3 ma3ach elnaqzat, dgay 3alla telfone madre waina

jawa while laughing: ahhh okay, hakk telfone ent deg 3alla manade elkhdama

I gave him my phone hesitantly

bader while laughing: okay bas shfech khayfa mara7 akhale9 r9edch

jawa: haha a9lan ana fwater:::

I was smiling unconsciously, it was a feeling that I never felt nor experience, and I really loved it

bader typed his  number, and I left the kitchen to search for the maid but a phone ring stopped me, it must be bader's phone

jawa while turning around: ohh bader gam asma3 telepho...

thats weird, his phone is in his pockets

bader: ouuhhhh kaho eb mkhbaty, macheftaa

I laughed took my phone and walked away

bader: maskuraa jawa

jawa while  looking  back: 3afwan, bye

bader: ma3salama

his words is like chosen flowers from a warm garden,my heart beated for every single word he said..

I went upstairs, to tell ghezlan that the maid was not there,I interned the room and i found both of anwar and ghezlan are ready

ghezlan: ha wain elkhdama?

jawa: ma lgait'ha, mu mushkella ana ashel eljan6aa

anwar: ee khadamna enrfzounnnn! ynamoun mbcher

I took the bag, and we went downstairs heading to my family's car, we interned the car

my mother: nawarat syartna anwar

ghezlan: haw w e7naa?

my dad: ee kelkum kulkm yubaa

after that, anwar and ghezlan were engrossed in their own conversation, my mother and father too, so I put on my headphones and played my music, just one last time -david guetta ft. taped Rai  played on

I was thinking deeply about what happened earlier, my phone buzzed and and it was a whatsapp message


99******: tra telphoni kan m3ay 6oul elmudda bas swait hal 7raka 3shan akheth raqmch:p


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I walked away while tears are falling, I could see him in the back side in my eyes he was still standing with a blank face, maybe trying to understand it all.. I didn't want to go, I want to admit my love that I have been hiding for so long.. That's when

Bader: jawa, jawa, jawa lala ne6ray

I will never forget these words.

I slowed my pace but not looking back nor stopping

Bader screaming hardly: JAWA

I stopped. against my well, its like a strong force.

more heavy tears are falling, he stopped in his place and i stood in mine, i still could see him behind me, trying to approach me but its like another force is stopping him

bader: j-jaawa enty matgdren trou7ien, ana 9arle 3 sneen a7bch, mu a3rfch A7BCH. jawa ana ghala6t w b-bas kella eb sbtch, ee ana kalamt l2na 7awalt ansach bas. w nourra? ehya ehya tsoulf wyay bas ma7ebha walla w-alla ma7ebha, jawa enty mu fahma ana abech!

he looked frustrated, he walked away toward the sea.

tears couldnt stop, I was touched.. i believe him of course i do of course! i just cant imagine that for this long i was paining over someone who is also paining, from me!

without feeling, without thinking i walked toward the sea approaching bader, until i reached his back, he still didnt notice i was there

jawa: bader, ana 7bait ensan wa7d, ent w lazelt ent w bt'thel ent.

he turned around surprised, but I walked a way, i was holding a smile that i never held, my heart was pumping so hard and my tummy was having those butterflies

I was walking toward the chalet and trying to look normal, so they wont ask me any questions, I started climbing the stairs, thats when i heard something made me drop another tear, but a happy tear, a tear after pain and lost..

bader screaming with a smile I can feel through his voice: 3alla senat alah w rsoulla enshalaaa.

I stopped again, its like he have this power that paralyze me

i smiled and hardly climbed the stairs, I entered the chalet and sat on the first chair I saw

ghezlan: haw shfech m7arbtna t3aly g3day mnii

jawa: ah-hah ee okay bas brou7 7mam

I pushed my self and dragged my leg toward the bathroom, I heard the door chalet was opening and i assumed that it was bader, so I fastened my heavy steps, i closed the bathroom and sat on the floor

that was too much to take for a one day, I was not able to pretend that I'm fine or okay, my heart was beating so hard and I was sweating.. could this be happeping, I mean I didnt believe in happy endings, maybe its not an ending maybe its a beginning to a bad ending? could it be? no NO stop thinking that way and live for your moment jawa, your dream your hopes.. could it be, could it

i rested my head on the door, I could hear bader voice in the living room talking and my heart started sinking, that deep voice will always capture me, I didnt know what to do or how I was going to get out of the bathroom with bader setting in the living room, suddenly something buzzed and I was freaked out..

i realized it was my phone ringing, it was ghezlan

ghezlan: wainch jawa?

jawa: ha? bl7mam

ghezlan: shfe 9outch chnch bachya?

no no no no no, she cant be asking me that while bader is setting around her, lets hope he havent heard.

jawa: bl7mam y3ne a9arekh yala bye

madre shako, bas mshaat elsalfa::


I got up and looked in the mirror, fixed my expressions and hair of  course, unlocked the door and went out

I walked to the living room with my eyes on the floor not daring to lift them up, I sat next to ghezlan and anwar, I started listening to my dad's and bader conversation about his third year in collage, and job and stuff

3ami bu abdulla: la enshala hatha el9gher yshtghel 3nde blshareka, lazm a7ad yamsek elshghel..ba3ad t3aref okhouh 3abdulla eb loyat elbank mu yam shay

my dad : 3adel 3adel, ha bader shrayk eb shghl elshareka?

bader: ee 3ami wayd ary7a7, 7etta law elwa7ed yfaker yswe mshrou3 ykoun elmwthou3 sahel 3laih w 3nda wakt

when he talks? everyone just had to shut up and listen to his words, the way he speak? just killed me.

my dad: ouh walla shghel 3adel, mwafag 7bebe enshala

bader: matga9er 3ammi

my mother: jawa 7bebty goumay douray bl7elw damch a9ghar wa7da

khalty om abdulla: la 7bebty g3day entay thayftnaa, anwar entay goumay

jawa: lala khalty ana agoum, shd3waa mu musheklla

anwar in low voice: 3abally ba3ad

i gave her  a look ina ra7 athb7ch later and took the sweet plate, qadamt 7ag obouy then 3ami..

3ammi: eb 3ersch enshalla

I blushed, so hard

i gave bader next, my hands was shaking while he was smiling, noticing that i was, that i was stressed?

bader whispering: tabchen ha?

I held my smile, ignored him and walked back to my place after serving the sweet

khalty: ee 3ad e7na 7ajzenha 7ag je3datna

oh god, does she mean bader, im sure my face was a tomato by now and i could hear ghezlan and anwar laughing silently, im gonna kill those two stooges:)

my mother: ya7ath men bnasbkum ya om 3abduulah, bas khalay elwalad yngii 3ala ra7taa 

khalty while smiling : ee ya um khaled, hathe nagwat bader, bentch jawa


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